Sunday Scaries taken to a whole new level

Have you seen people posting online about the “Sunday Scaries”? It refers to that sinking feeling in your gut as the dread of the upcoming work week starts to set in. One moment, you’re enjoying a happy Sunday barbecue, next you start to worry about what time to leave in order to be home in time for bed.

Okay, sidenote: I tried to spell barbecue like barbeque and I got the red squiggly line. Has that always been a thing? I feel like I’ve seen that word spelled with the Q all the time…

Anyway- my Sunday Scaries have set in. But on an extreme level. The girls leave at the end of this week for a visit with their mom. Today is a goodbye party for my aunt, uncle, and cousin. This cousin and I are ten years apart, but we grew up like sisters. I was her babysitter every day for all of her summers and many weekends. I am so proud of her for going to college, but I feel like a piece of my heart is moving 8 hours away.

Anyway, as I start to prepare for the goodbye party, I decide now is the perfect time to order those Mixtile picture frames that I’ve been wanting. I sort through our pictures that we have taken as a family these part few months. I got DEEP into my emotions and started reflecting as I cried all over my keyboard. It is so crazy to me that our first “family” picture as the four of us was only taken months ago. It feels like it’s been ages that we have all four lived together.

Change is scary and that’s okay. I have started to really embrace the change that comes my way. If I resisted change like I used to- I wouldn’t have my little family. I’m learning to let my emotions come and just be at peace with them as I process the change. And if that means crying as I scroll through pictures, that’s fine. Hope is waiting for me to cuddle her on the couch.